Where did february go?! Sorry...my random way of opening up this blog. This month has really just flown by. I'm doing good, Nick & Chaya are doing good too. I'm finally getting back to normal after having the miscarriage, the body does crazy things when you go through that... I honestly thought I was going to gain 300 lbs because I was hungry all the time. Finally thats all gone! yay.


I got a new camera, it's a Nikon D60 and I love it. I've always wanted a dslr and could never afford it, and now I have one! I'm super excited about that! I'm also signed up to take a photoshop class in a few weeks. I can't wait, I want to be a better photographer/photo-editor. I'm actually thinking about starting a photography business, I love doing it so much I might as well get paid right?!


What else is new in the melissa world... hmmm .... I tried on some shorts tonight, size 18, and they fit with a little extra room, I haven't been able to wear that size since highschool!! I'm excited! I've gained a few pounds this month but I blame the horomones and the stress. I'm all about losing weight in march, I even invested in an mp3 player to take with me on my runs this year! I'm so excited for warm weather and running again. I've dearly missed it. I'm actually thinking about training for a half-marathon.. I'm pretty sure I'm going to do it.. I have this program that is supposed to take you 8 weeks.. I'm pretty sure I may need like....a whole year before I can run that far, but I'm really wanting to try for it! I'm also going to be starting ZUMBA soon!! I cannot wait for my DVD's to arrive in the mail!! I would go to a class but the nearest one is in terre haute and I'm not driving there everyday...ugh... but I can do it in my home which is the plan. I'm still doing weight watchers..although I've slacked off majorly this month... I just couldn't do it..emotions and hormones... just wasn't in the mood or had the motivation.





I'm going to start taking more and more pictures, back on that subject.. I'm just really into the whole photography thing and now I have a really good camera. Tomorrow it's supposed to be in the 50's so I think Chaya and I will venture to the park and do a little photoshoot.. she is my favorite person to take pictures of..she's just so BEAUTIFUL and always full of life! I consider it a privilage to be her mommy =)





I'm still in school... I'm taking history and polity of the nazarene church..fun fun fun~!





yay school.





this was one of the first pictures I took with my new camera... isn't she the most beautiful thing you've ever seen! I love my Chaya..and I think this is one of my favorite pictures of her!! I'll probably be starting a photo blog soon so stay tuned!

peace out!!

-ps~ Who is reading this?! Comment me !!

So..new year is here!! I've worked out 8 times in the past 10 days, finally at the point where I'm taking my workouts seriously! I'm actually starting to see a difference too. I'm down to a weight of 207!! Almost under 200 which has been a huge goal of mine forever.. I was 260 the day I had my daughter, (they had a scale in the bathroom) I am just ecstatic at the weight I've lost this past year and even more excited about losing more this year. Tonight at walmart I was trying on clothes in the dressing room and I ended up getting a shirt size large, and pants size 16/18 ( I was a 24!) and everything I tried on fit me and looked great! I'm really excited! It's just been so long since I've actually felt good about my body. And of course I write this on a day I decided to not work out..(my body is sooo tired!) and I've kinda been a bit relaxed on calories today, I just think every now and again it's good to have a break..only for a day, but it's good to just eat stuff I crave in order not to binge later.. I'm really feeling great physically and emotionally etc...I just feel good and I think I look good to! I'm happy today :) I can't wait for dinner though, I'm really hungry!

I have been very encouraged lately. Christmas was AWESOME! I missed my family like crazy, but my mom & dad did end up coming over yesterday...which they didn't think they would be able to do, so that was nice. We exchanged gifts, ate a really good lunch and spent time together. They gave Chaya this turtle that illuminates stars all over her room at night, it is the coolest thing ever, it's like she has her own little view of the galaxy! Nick had to work on Christmas day so we celebrated on Saturday, it was nice just having our little family together this Christmas without having to worry about whose family we needed to spend time with and having a schedule..it really ruins the fun let me tell ya!

Chaya loved Christmas, she didn't really do to well opening her gifts, but this year she was more excited about the gift than the paper and boxes, I think her favorite gift was baby stella, she's a doll and Chaya absolutly adores her! Another gift that she loves is her animal dvd and polar bear that her daddy got her... I was practical and ended up getting her new toy baskets for her room, I wanted to get her a toy box but I couldn't find one that I liked...We spent Christmas day baking tons of cookies and Nick helped us decorate them, it was so much fun!! On Christmas eve we went out for pizza which I think will be our new tradition and the went to family comunion at church which I really loved. All in all we've just had such a wonderful week together..all 3 of us, it's just really been a huge blessing.

I can't believe that new years is right around the corner...it seems like yesterday we were celebrating the beginning of 2008, I was making my new years resolutions and making a list of goals.... and for once in my life I can actually say I stuck with my resolution, my goal for 2008 was to lose weight, I've lost 37 pounds since this time last year!! I wish it were more, but it's been slow and pretty steady. Which in the long run I think will help me to keep it off. I've lost about 13 pounds over the last couple of weeks since joining weight watchers, I really enjoy doing it because I see results. I've been really slacking off this week and using the holidays as my excuse but let me tell you, my body is hating me for it, tomorrow it's back to fruits, veggies, grains, and protein... not cookies and pasta and pizza etc.. I've just realized that I have come this far and I need to keep going until I get to my goal..which my first goal I'm only about 10lbs away from! Weight watchers starts you off with losing 10% of your body weight and I am sooooo close! I can't wait to be healthier and lose the rest of this weight! I feel so much better already! I've been thinking about my new years resolutions for this year and this is what I've got so far...
* Lose weight*
*stop drinking soda*
*work out everyday*
*listen to God more*
*read scripture more...*
*be the best Christian I can be...*
*make friends*
*read more*
*be a better friend*
*love the unloveable*

thats what I have this far but I'm sure I'll add to that list.....

I'm excited for 2009, I'm excited to reach my personal goals and to see what God has in store for us! I think new and exciting things are coming so be watching for updates!! haha..

well thats about it for now...

~Melissa

I haven't updated in awhile again! I'm a bad blogger haha.. I'll probably be updating a little more now because I'm done with school until January 5th (woohoo!) We just recently decorated our house for Christmas and I have every intention of posting pics I just haven't had a free minute until now and my camera is dead until I find some batteries!

Chaya is growing up way to fast for me, she basically learns at least one new word a day, I honestly can't believe how much she's talking! And...she knows what she's talking about.. We were at church on sunday and in the row in front of us was a baby, sure enough Chaya pointed at her and said baby. When she see's Dora the Explorer, she says "Dora" when you leave she says bye, and soooooooooo many more words that I have lost count of! Today we started potty training, I wanted to wait until she could walk, but I changed my mind because I have full confidence in her that she's ready and I figure if I wait to long she won't want to do it... I think now is a good time.. We started this morning by her sitting on her potty for over an hour until she peed... then I gave her an animal cracker and told her what a good girl she was, then we put a dora sticker on her chart. Shortly after though, I put her panties on her..(That's right I said panties!!) and she was in her walker where she went poop. So...we're 1 for 1 today, not bad considering today is day one! I figure that today I have already not had to change one diaper and that my friends is what we call success!!

In other news.. my dad feel on the ice at work today and hurt his back, he's in the emergency room now, so I'm hoping that he'll get to go home soon and rest and get better. The schools in Casey got let out early today at 1:00, I don't know maybe it's worse than it looks outside but the weather doesn't seem to be very bad here, there is a little dusting of snow on the ground but thats it that I can see.. who knows, maybe driving is much worse...

I joined weight watchers, a few weeks ago, I've lost 9lbs so far, which is awesome! I have a lot more to go but I'm really confident that I can get to where I need to be. It's hard, but definitly worth it, I'm not struggling much with eating healthier because I've been working on that for the past year, but I am struggling with working out, I'm shooting for 3-4 times a week right now, I made that goal last week, so I'm hoping that this week I will too. Well, I think thats about all I'm going to write for now, I need to do some housework, I have laundry to put away and dishes to do, and of course cheerios to clean up off the dining room floor because my daughter feels the need to throw food on the floor everytime she eats... we've seriously had a time out everyday for the past week!! I'm hoping that soon she understands why I'm mad!! grrr...

Well, thats all! Merry Christmas!!!

~melissa

wow, I forgot to blog lol

Wow, I can't believe I haven't updated this in almost a month!! And I said I was going to be a faithful blogger..ha..right.. my life has just been really busy lately with traveling, class, Chaya, and of course spending time with the love of my life=P

Class has been HARD! But, totally worth it and I'm actually doing well, I have a B right now and I only have a week and a half left! Thank God!! I can't wait to be done with math forever and I'm ALMOST there!!

I've been really good lately, the holidays were very stressful though! We all ended up getting the stomach flu! I had it the worst, and Chaya had it too, but she bounced right back from it, I didn't bounce back quite as fast, Nick didn't either but we're all good now. I lost 16 pounds in 3 days, not quite the way I wanted to lose weight! yuck! Bulimia works people!! LOL I could never do that, I don't see how anyone could ever do that but whatever...

I've been doing good with weight loss lately, I lost 2 pounds, this past week... I've been eating healthy and REALLY watching portions, thats the area where I struggle but I've been doing so good!! I'm even trying to eat more fruits and veggies because my diet is lacking in that area...but hey I'm always improving =) I've been trying to find healthier versions of sweets, since I'm a junky and trying to quit I've been finding snacks that are low cal and still just as yummy as cookies and cakes... I've recently discovered graham crackers and fat free/sugar free cool whip... amazing!! haha

anyway, we are doing so good right now, Chaya is absolutly wonderful and growing and learning more everyday! Nick and I are more in love than ever!! We've been going to a fireproof your marriage smallgroup, it's been really great for us and being with the people in our group is such a blessing they are wonderful! we are very blessed!

Well I think thats about it for now... I love the comercial for sugar cookies where the kid leaves them for santa and then he sees his dad eating them and he freaks out..hahaha so funny...

okay .. anyway, I'm out! Hope you had a good thanksgiving!!

...haha..


wow... life is crazy sometimes, but what are ya gonna do...


sorry for the vagueness~

I'm sitting in my dining room watching Chaya eat lunch... on the menu today is a turkey and cheese sandwich, banana slices, and cheese crackers..oh and an apple juice to drink. I love lunch time with my daughter, its her favorite part of the day because she gets to eat food, and it's my favorite because I get to just sit and talk to my little girl. I know she can't really talk much yet, she only knows a few words, but I don't need to hear words to understand her, I knew her before she was born and because of that I just have a very deep understanding of her needs, wants, complaints etc. It's amazing how you go from being completely terrified that you are going to be a parent, to being a first time parent and wondering what you got yourself into..(those first few weeks are HARD!) to just simply being a mom and knowing exactly what you need to do. When I first had Chaya I was always second guessing myself and feeling like other people knew better than me what she needed, until one day I realized that I am her MOTHER and I know her better than anyone else. Nick and I were talking last night about how at our old church people treated me like I was stupid, they would come over to me and basically take Chaya out of my arms and walk off with her, there were a few occasions in the church nursery where I would go to get Chaya and someone in the church had already taken her..so I'd have to go looking for her.. needless to say I stopped taking her there...I just felt like a horrible mother... but I don't know, one day it just hit me that she is my daughter and I make the rules. Now..NOBODY takes my baby from me, nobody touches her without asking me first. I have found that only at my old church did people not ask to hold her, now people ask ALWAYS..I think it just has to do with respect..you don't hold someones child without asking..it just doesn't happen, and if you think that you have that right then you have another thing coming.

I guess I'm just really starting to feel like a mom...I know Chaya is one now, but its taken time for me to get in the groove of things and really become the mom that my daughter needs, I no longer second guess myself, I know what each sound means, I know what each cry means, I know when she's hungry, I know when she's tired... its just great to know her so well.. I'm so blessed to get to be her mom, she is my joy. She makes me so proud every time I look at her, each day she learns something new and does something to amaze me. I just love her so much! She is such a blessing, she's our little gift :)